onsdag den 24. november 2010

mamma, it's a great life!


jeg må indrømme at jeg har verdens dejligste og mest gavmilde mor! hun hjælper mig altid i sidste ende på den bedste måde hun nu kan...

det må sku heller ikke altid være helt nemt at være mor til mig, haha. Men hun har taget sig så utrolig fantastisk meget af mig, og beskyttet mig alt det hun kunne mod det onde i verdenen.
jeg kan være ekstremt grænse overskridende, og kalde/gøre ting jeg altid og evigt fortryder.
Det har ikke været nemt for hende altid, og som sagt igen, så må det til tider være ekstremt svært at være mor til en som mig:). Jeg kan forlange rigtig mange ting, og forvente en hel masse, altid.. og utroligt nok så bliver det altid som jeg vil have det, i sidste ende.. jeg er møg forkælet! det behøves der vidst ikke at blive lagt skjul på.

Hold fast hvor får jeg lyst til at beskytte hende mod verdenen derude, selvom hun allerede har været igennem alverdens ting. Jeg kan slet ikke klare hvis andre ikke viser hende respekt, og sårer hende.. fordi den som det sårer aller mest i sidste ende, er mig.. det kan godt lyde egoistisk, men det ikke ment egoistisk!
hvad der siges og gøres mod hende, sætter sig ligeså meget på mig.

det ville vel næsten også være helt forkert og ''unormalt'' hvis tingene ikke var sådan her, tænker jeg.. hun gør sku sit bedste, hun er også bare et menneske, som en del mennesker har udnyttet alt for meget! ville gøre alt for at skrue hendes tid tilbage og ændre på visse ting, meeen... it's a great life! er det ikke også;)

vil altid ønske der kunne være en skytsengel over hende igennem alt.. hvilket jeg også tror på at der en del gange har været!

'hvad skulle man gøre uden mor? du helt klart den bedste'

peace!!

tirsdag den 23. november 2010

as the days goes by...

jaha, hej allesammen! det har været et stykke tid siden jeg sidst opdateret min blog, undskyld! kan ikke love at det ikke sker igen :)... men altså,

de sidste par dage har jeg bare arbejdet, arbejdet rigtig meget! men det behøves også, fordi jeg sparer jo op til en hel masse ting:D rejser f.eks.
så når jeg så arbejder så meget, så bliver jeg bare så utrolig træt, og derfor så har energien til at blogge, ikke rigtig lige været der :).

hvad er det med den kærlighed?? ... altså... man er bange for at komme ind i noget nyt, fordi det heelt nyt, og skræmmende på en måde... men når man så først er helt inde i centrum af det, hvor det bare er 'point of no return' så er man bare så fanget, at det begynder at blive skræmmende hvor såret man ville blive hvis det her som er så godt, sluttede. Men jeg har altid oplevet at ting de slutter, forhold, venskab, rejser selvfølgelig... men selvom vi ved det, og er helt fuldstændig klare over hvad der kan ske, eller vil ske.. så frygter vi det stadig! det ER skræmmende.

meeen, det godt at have et dejligt menneske her i livet, som man kan snakke med om ALT. som altid lytter på en, og kan svare! det er virkelig noget jeg sætter stor pris på Anna:) my girl... uden hende kunne jeg ikke særlig meget, helt simpelt som det er sagt... alle behøver en ved sig, og nej det behøver for fanden ikke være en kæreste, men bare en søster, eller en bedste ven, og det har jeg:)!
så TAK Anna, mange mange tusinde tak! glæder mig til at se dig igen om ikke så længe! love you.

tirsdag den 16. november 2010

release me now..


Cold Case Love

torsdag den 11. november 2010

but really



just came home from Zuuumbaaaa :D i still LOOOVE it!! my thing yaa ;)


but there is something, which i just dont know what to do or say about anymore??
stop being so jealous... why cant you just be happy on my ways? and come to me if something irritate you?... gaaah thats what irritate me! do something else than talking about me to eeeeverybody 24/7, or stay in freaking kindergarden. Seriously, im sick of it.. do something else, run somewhere, talk to a door, or just shut your mouth? i would looooooove some silence! i neeeed silence, when it comes to that. stop the shit talk about me, and grow up, get yourself together, and do something else :) (y)

men seriøst





i would do alot just to sit right there again, right now.

but no, now im getting ready for Zuuuumbaaa again, 2 times in a week, thats how i do it. or well, just to survive this winter, i HAVE to do something there at least isnt 100% a danish thing and blablabla... think you get the point.

onsdag den 10. november 2010

i do it for love.





we had our ups and downs but we always end up being the best together! and so let it be(:

tirsdag den 9. november 2010

if i want it.. i'll damn sure get it! ;)





first 2 tops from Nelly.com

and the last 2 things from hm.com :) have a great night!

mandag den 8. november 2010

ME LIKE!!



this is what im doing 2 times a week ^^ and i looooove it! its so much fun, and its a amazing feeling when you're doing it, and when you're finish! :) i think everybody should try it. its like dance... salsa, and all those tropical dances:D shake shake shake;) but its hard! it really gets you hot:D amazing!

you gotta love it



i took a day off today, just relaxing with mum, eating great food, and shopping! and when we went shopping, i met the paradise hotel winner 2009 Frederik, haha.. great:)! we talked for like 15 min:P always fun.

i found lots of nice things, and its needed, cause soon i'll start saving money FOR REAL! now when i got alot of work:D me liiiiike!

uuhh let it be christmas, i want christmas and new year! and then after the winter can just fuck of:) i want sooo many nice things for christmas hihi cant waaait:)

right now in this moment im just talking with Anna, like always:D haha .. daily thing yaa

anyway :)




Alanya 2010 ^^ Anna & me.. omg a crazy night^^ HAHA!
I'm so happy for that you're always here for me, and remember im aaaalways here for you too baby (:!!!

lørdag den 6. november 2010

sometimes, this life gets to hard for me

even my own life fucks me up... and all i hear people say is: 'Its a great life' well damn sure it is for some people.. im just not the lucky one.
i feel like breaking... just going down, dont know where... but my body has said stop, and wont work anymore.. everybody's so damn lucky, while i feeling caught up here, cant go anywhere right now, everythings getting darker.. winter!!

those you thought were the best people in your life, can kick your ass best when it comes to feelings.. i feel like my heart has been ripped out, cut in many pieces.. and all i can do is trying to get myself together again.. but then i start to think about if it really is that bad for you soul, to just be a crying bitch for a couple of days.. i mean, thats how the human is sometimes, so it must be something that we are ment to do?? just being a sad crying bitch, who doesnt feel like talking and smiling to eeevery fucking body.

.... and buhu, i really do miss '(somebody)' veeery much, the pain can't be explained. and still, all i have alot of is sleepless nights, pain in the stomack everyday, and trouble with breathing normal, every fucking day also. What the hell is wrong with me?? right now.. these days.. weeks, i couldnt be more tired of myself. Hand on the heart, if there is something that i am pretty good at, then it is to fuck up things and people, my talent there is really amazing.. and oh boy it bites my ass sometimes pprrrr :s

those settings, words.. is e-x-a-c-t-l-y what things look like inside of me in this moment

i need those things in life




*like i need you*

torsdag den 4. november 2010

:)))



this day went from 100 % shitty day, to the best day of the week!
job-interview tomorrow, weeee!

onsdag den 3. november 2010

<'3




talking about something pretty....


nothing can ever explain how it feels its a magic feeling... something so unrealistic, so amazing... no i cant explain

.......



if you want the stars, then i will get them for you!

3'rd november



thinks that its 'PARTY ON' at friday
cant imagine staying home one more weekend, after i've been watching movies at home for 2 weekends now! too bad

tirsdag den 2. november 2010

but...


*the road there doesn't start in the heart, ends blind*

what/where would we be today, without dreams?



so please.. let me just fly right up to the sky.. out of my mind