*my feet is hurting*

my head is full.. my hands are cold.. my eyes are heavy.. my stomack is empty.. and oh boy, my feet is hurting

today its the 29 october.. and i dont know how the f*** i'll survive this winter

a hell to the yeaaah!!

uumm all this will be in my arms soon ^^ just could'nt live without d-:

well well...

what a dramatic mood i was in last night... anyway, im not perfect 100% all the time!! i got so much more in me than anybody knows, see, or feel that i have..

these days are pasting fast! not bad :) thats only what i want... the days to past fast!

anyway... im using my time on working at different stuff, and talking with Anna and Sandra .. låååwely girls ;) will next summer season be good?? oh hell yeah, IT WILL KICK ASS! and where will i be??... around the world! got big plans, oh yeah, biiig plans;).. but my old paradise wont be safe next summer, haha... CAUSE I'LL BE BACK! guess where ;) muhaha... and even my dear mum is coming with me and the other girls some of the time.. could'nt ask for anything better:) ..

its getting fucking cold yaa?! buhu... would do aaanything for the summmer 2011 to come faster.

TAMAM!

tamam, 2 danish ''darlings'' (bitches) really asked for this.. I dont get why i didnt do this before, gotta make something clear now.


1: do they hate me? hell yeah (:

2: do they live in a smaaaall town? like a village? Yeees they do.

3: had they ever been outside of that small village? nooo .. too bad for them.

4: had they been spending 50 % of their lifes on talking shit about my life? oooh yeah!! (and is there a reason for them doing that? nooo... which is even more annoying) jealousy is a baaad bad thing. or well, i do know one of their problems: they just cant live with that i am this tall.. thats the thing they hate me most for, and what they have been making most ''fun'' of.. bitches.. pprrrrr!! one the most weak points in me is when people is using the fact about how tall i am, for a reason to not like me. WTF

5: are their other friends allowed to be friends with me? haha noo... gaah i could laugh forever about this! sometimes i wonder if they came too late out of kindergarden?? :).

6: do they like Turkey/Alanya? ehh no...

7: do they 100% mean that im an idiot and even more a slut because that i've been alot in Turkey and because i love Alanya?? YEAAH thats exactly what they think.

8: have i ignored them for a very long time? yeap.
ITS OVER. im done being sweet, nice, good girl.. done with hearing all that shit-talk and taking it with a smile... that wont be me anymore.

9: my best advice for those girls that im talking about, is to get just a little bit outside of that small village.. see the big realistic world around them... anyway they will find out one day that not everybody takes other people's bullshit with a smile!

10: will i ever forgive these darlings? oh hell no! but i'll sure forget about them... this is a moment where you don't just forgive & forget! cause, in situations like this, you just say have a great life, i wish you all luck and cant wait for the day when you'll get out and see the reality of life! they only made my skin thicker and my heart stronger.. thanks alot! seriously.. i've learned what kind of bitches i never will be looking for as friends. so as i said, no time to forgive and forget! its time F-O-R-G-E-T... cause they arent worth anything AT ALL. :)

11: ohh yeah, and ps: those of you who are over 1.79 cm tall, might understand this very well.. had you ever had some haters at 1.55cm - 1.65cm talking shit about you?? ofcourse you've had that.. so, had you ever had that feeling where you just are thinking of how easy it would be to just stamp them to the ground? im 1.85cm tall, and i have that though aaalot ;)...


tamam, i'll stop here cause i could go on 24/7 about this/them.. just felt like getting out with some of all this ?:)

please..

this game.. i dont like it.. non of us have been playing by the rules... anyway, did somebody say that we had too?? ... dont know, but... i dont like it, i've never liked it. game over!

the right words at the right time?

years gone by and still, words don't come easily.. but you can say, Baby can I hold you tonight? baby if I told you the right words at the right time, you'll be mine?..

i cant dream 'with' you anymore

there is'nt any reality in this world anyway..

best things in life...

good with some days off.... but hate being away from the best people and things in life, Agnete (: !

oh boy..

you're more confusing to me, than japan ever would be.

But now i'll keep smiling cause i've used to much energy on crying.

we'll meet

but its not like that im gonna wish for it.

what i really miss

fatma & me ^^

there is'nt sweet enough words for this girl... A very VERY good friend of mine who helped me so much the summer 2010... i'll never be able to show how thankfull i am for everything she did for me.. Fatma i miss you so so much, and love you with all of my heart, hope to see you soon!

100 %

top 6' of what i like from this month:

1: lots of funny people around me some time at the day everyday, which always makes me laugh even when my day is r-e-l-l-y gray!

2: working out: spinning(bodybike) and zumba.. i've never been feeling better than now!

3: The ampelos industry! hehe.. the best blog i've ever seen. I've loved this blog for at least 1 year! it means alot to me and its like a daily thing for me to read that blog. It's 2 wonderful girls there drives it, and they are doing gooood! So take a look at it: ampelos.blogg.se

4: watching movies and drinking hot chocolate! looooove.

5: the next friday P-A-R-T-Y!!..

6: going in sunbed.. yeah it might be called a fake tan, but i simply love it!

*yeah, right up to the sky*

(uuummm if i just could go back to this day, for just 1 hour) looooove.


it would be a lie to say that not much is going on these days because A LOT is going on! sometimes i catch myself not breathing haha because my head is so full of things to do and all this stuff that i haaave to remember allah allah...

i've startet to work out again it feels like that it have been ages since the last time i were in a fitness center haha... but naaa... ive been at 'spinning' (bodybike) 2 times this week and if you ask me then hell yeah its hard! but so much fun. Then i have also startet to go to zumbaaaa :-D also a team in my fitness center.. its great it really is.. so ofcourse this body will be ready for next summer hehe im feeeeling it ;) gotta start early with those things when it comes to getting ready for a new season even though that it is alot months away...

gaaaah i gotta safe money for next weekend! one of my friends is having birthday next friday and ofcourse we are going to celebrate with a biiig party so yeah we are going out... anyways there is a big event that night at a club which we are going to so thats just great timing:) but oohhh its really alot money that i have to safe d-: haha and i need all these other things before friday that i have to get! i really hope that there will fall some money from the sky before friday hah! :D or just a fucking job for me?? buhu like thats gonna happen! s;

anyways take care out there!

xx

i dont know how to put this in the right way, but.... i miss you ...

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it feels like that since i came home to Denmark again, i've had to many things to think about, to care about, and 'MUST DO THINGS'... jesus! there is to many MUST DO things here.. ofcourse you need to take care of life and everything around to make everything work, but im just doing something that i dont wanna do, because that i have to do it, before i can do, what i REALLY wanna do... 'TRAVEL BABY' ggghhaaaa how long must my heart wait... =")¤%/((¤#)"="¤?¤?#)=# its not fair..
fx. i have to take the buss maaany times at one day, because of small things, and i still havent found a perfect job... no im not looking for ''the perfect dream job'' but a perfect job in that way where i can safe enough money without killing my own body, which i've done to many times in this short life. Somethings gotta change, something gotta happen! i cant take this, i need change! i wanna see things in change, and life in change.

what is love...

^^this is love.. for me it is, and will always be^^

i - really - wanna - get - out - of - Danmark - N O W!

*big plans can be dangerous*

but who cares ;) i got big plans.. and i believe it's good! as said, new is good! change is good! so bring it (:

my list so far:
-Kuşadası
-Bodrum







hell yeah !

....

Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts. Others come into our lives and make us wanna leave footprints on their face!

buuhuuu...

i miss my girl Anna... i really truely do, but soon we will meet again, i hope that we will here in october month:)! that girl means alot to me.. she was there all the time for me in my summer in Alanya! we went through alot, and i wont forget anything.. i need her by my side! hahaha i can just laugh so much when i think of all we went through.. and all the shit with our apartment and so on, haha jeeesus christ! i miss how we turned alanya up and down 99% of the time haha...
love ya.

' i wanna know your name '

some pictures from this weekend..